AGITATED, oh whatever.
I see them, I get sad.
I see the other them, I get jealous.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
I've got no idea. Don't question me cause I can't answer my own questions.
I don't know. I find myself pathetic. No, I find myself VERY pathetic. I've been asking people what satisfy them but always forgotten to ask myself.
Irah, what exactly satisfies you? Exactly what you want?! Oh my god irah.
Bestfriends won't be around. Be it girl or guy bestfriends. I don't know why I have high hopes in Nabil when I shouldn't. I don't know.
Irah suck balls. Ooh I do.
I looked happy, crazy, Hyper. You name it, I am but heeeck, I feel lame.
Im lame, pathetic.
done.
Hari Raya doesn't feel right, honestly.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Enjoyed those hot pictures? HAHAH. I had fun with this kick ass best friend of mine. Left school & came here. Had a simple yet fugly hair cut ( as always ), bought papaya soap & bought contact lens. GAH. money money flies. daaaang.
Changed into home clothes and took awesome pictures! haha! Feeling sleepy. Tsk. I'm having fun you know, on the bed with her, butt rubbing against each other's, NOT. Laughing alot, like omg fuun alright (:
I guess I'm turning in for awhile before going home.
I knw I said I'm on HIATUS but uhm, seize every moment possible to blog. HEH.
SOCIAL STUDIES SUCK SMELLY SOCKS. My fingers cried okaay. TIRED.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Im at Fee's house.
She's trying pretty hard to wear the giant Minnie Mouse's dress. The bear itself is huge, but the dress, is small. So imagine, fee wearing bra & trying to fit in the dress. Making the " uhmm uhmm" sound, cause she can't get thru the head. HILARIOUS SHIT!
And on the other side, imagine Minnie Mouse without a dress BUT with the pretty polka bow on the head. HAHAHAHA. HILARIOUS SHIT TOO!
Had a huge fight with Nabil for the past two days. He acted different while he was at NYP. Something fishy. Yes, I'm right. Apparently, someone gets very close with him OR the other way, Idk. All I know, he did come clean with me telling me the truth. Angryshit.
He apologise millions of times. Can't believe his words. Touching yet hard to believe. This is why you don't mess with Irah, seriously. I can make you feel guilty like shit, I mean it.
Gave him the final last chance. Risk it, loose it, loose me. Simple.
Exams started & Lappy died FOR GOOOOOD, i mean it. Ah, she died at the right timing. So, I can finally focus on my revision, I thought so.
ON HIATUS. till god knows when, VERY LONG.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I DETEST. a guy like you don't deserve my awesome treatment. Like I said, I can be as nice like nobody have treated you but hey, I can be the meanest bitch you've ever come across. You got that Nabil?
Sorry for not updating sweets. My lappy died again. Dont ask me why, how, when. I'm upset. LOLS. it seems like I've got nothing else in the house after the lappy died. okay wth.
Busy with school stuff & my after school sleeps. So yeaaaaaaaaaaah.
DUA TIGA, MONYET TERBANG
MANA NAK SAMA, TUPAI TERBANG.
KALAU KITA, ORANG YANG BAIK..
TENTU KITA, BANYAK UWANG.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAA.
Sorry for not updating sweets. My lappy died again. Dont ask me why, how, when. I'm upset. LOLS. it seems like I've got nothing else in the house after the lappy died. okay wth.
Busy with school stuff & my after school sleeps. So yeaaaaaaaaaaah.
DUA TIGA, MONYET TERBANG
MANA NAK SAMA, TUPAI TERBANG.
KALAU KITA, ORANG YANG BAIK..
TENTU KITA, BANYAK UWANG.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAA.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Kita tidak harus mungkir janji dengan apa yang kita sudah berjanji.
WELL DONE AL-ZULKARNAEN ADAM (:
Heck, it's funny. & it's rare to see him laughing cause what I heard was he would only laugh naturally to something which is funny. So yeah, I had fun during Malay Class just now.
www.-euphoria.blogspot.com
Prolly, that would be my new URL. Have yet change so yeah, we'll see how (:
DEAD TIRED.
WELL DONE AL-ZULKARNAEN ADAM (:
Heck, it's funny. & it's rare to see him laughing cause what I heard was he would only laugh naturally to something which is funny. So yeah, I had fun during Malay Class just now.
www.-euphoria.blogspot.com
Prolly, that would be my new URL. Have yet change so yeah, we'll see how (:
DEAD TIRED.
OH HIATUS.
AH MACAM PAHAM LARH.
Hari Raya songs already playing on the radio & TV commercials.
HAPPY OR WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?
Okay, I have to mug mug mug & mug hard.
No time for love. No time for jokes. No time for night videos. No time for arif ( ermmm? not now ). No time for whatever it is. EOY, get me through to Secondary Four, then I shall resume all my shiets (:
I'm selected for Langkawi trip & I don't think I'm going. I dont know. Prolly I'm giving my space to those who wants to go. Well, only mine to one person. Have to work hard for Perth! (:
Thanks though to the Malay teachers for selecting me & the three others from Band 2.
I'm delighted. It's Friday tomorrow. Then Monday will come in no time! Which means, Nabil will be back. Ah ass, I can't wait! (:
I flunked a 10 marks Maths Test paper just now. It looks like I'm the only ass who can't do that 5 marks questions. I forgot to shift the -9 lah Miss Lee! Haiz! Regret maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.
Lesson learnt. Dah diam, macam faham siak.
AH MACAM PAHAM LARH.
Hari Raya songs already playing on the radio & TV commercials.
HAPPY OR WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?
Okay, I have to mug mug mug & mug hard.
No time for love. No time for jokes. No time for night videos. No time for arif ( ermmm? not now ). No time for whatever it is. EOY, get me through to Secondary Four, then I shall resume all my shiets (:
I'm selected for Langkawi trip & I don't think I'm going. I dont know. Prolly I'm giving my space to those who wants to go. Well, only mine to one person. Have to work hard for Perth! (:
Thanks though to the Malay teachers for selecting me & the three others from Band 2.
I'm delighted. It's Friday tomorrow. Then Monday will come in no time! Which means, Nabil will be back. Ah ass, I can't wait! (:
I flunked a 10 marks Maths Test paper just now. It looks like I'm the only ass who can't do that 5 marks questions. I forgot to shift the -9 lah Miss Lee! Haiz! Regret maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.
Lesson learnt. Dah diam, macam faham siak.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Flu & that headache I couldn't tolerate; I felt like dying.
First half of the day was fine. I was laughing and cracking jokes with bestfriend but towards the end of Geography lesson, which is the 3Rd period of the day, I felt nausea & actually felt like vomiting. It's not what I've eaten this morning. I don't know.
Then flu & boom boom headache during Maths lesson. Then, I knew I'm falling sick thanks to lack of sleep which also thanks to the hours of facing the lappy's screen. Lack of energy, haven't been eating & sleeping well. Examinations are on their way and I'm not even doing my part to pay attention in class. Well, I did but it's not enough. Ah, Boost!
So, I went to the Sick Bay for the second time this week during the change of period. Initially, I wanted to stay longer because I was giddy but left the place & head back to class, met Afee there. Before that, as I was sleeping, Nabil called! (: I was delighted but couldn't get more excited, my headache is sucha killer!
Nabil, please behave when you're there! You guys too!
Had Oral after school and I have to say that I can't talk. Seriously, I couldn't explain what was on the picture and all I said was all those " duhh " answers. So yeah, I hope my reading could push up my grades. But I find the picture very stupid. Never mind, I hate Orals, be it Mother Tongue or English.
After Oral, chatted with Mr Isham & Afee. Mother came and drove to Mak Lily's place to take measurements & do some alterations for my Hari Raya costumes (: Then headed home.
I don't feel like turning up tomorrow. I'm sick. But, I have to lah eh. BANDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
See you guys tomorrow.
Goodbye (:
First half of the day was fine. I was laughing and cracking jokes with bestfriend but towards the end of Geography lesson, which is the 3Rd period of the day, I felt nausea & actually felt like vomiting. It's not what I've eaten this morning. I don't know.
Then flu & boom boom headache during Maths lesson. Then, I knew I'm falling sick thanks to lack of sleep which also thanks to the hours of facing the lappy's screen. Lack of energy, haven't been eating & sleeping well. Examinations are on their way and I'm not even doing my part to pay attention in class. Well, I did but it's not enough. Ah, Boost!
So, I went to the Sick Bay for the second time this week during the change of period. Initially, I wanted to stay longer because I was giddy but left the place & head back to class, met Afee there. Before that, as I was sleeping, Nabil called! (: I was delighted but couldn't get more excited, my headache is sucha killer!
Nabil, please behave when you're there! You guys too!
Had Oral after school and I have to say that I can't talk. Seriously, I couldn't explain what was on the picture and all I said was all those " duhh " answers. So yeah, I hope my reading could push up my grades. But I find the picture very stupid. Never mind, I hate Orals, be it Mother Tongue or English.
After Oral, chatted with Mr Isham & Afee. Mother came and drove to Mak Lily's place to take measurements & do some alterations for my Hari Raya costumes (: Then headed home.
I don't feel like turning up tomorrow. I'm sick. But, I have to lah eh. BANDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
See you guys tomorrow.
Goodbye (:
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
I think of a while ago
We might of have had it all
I was so stupid then
You needed time to grow
But now just as things change
As well my feelings do
In time things rearrange
I am so sick of chasing you
But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
You make me regret those times I spent with you
And playing those games as I wait for your call
And now I give up, so goodbye and so long
It's not a change of pace
This time I'll get it right
It's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night
When I needed you most
When I needed a friend
You let me down now
Like I let you down then
So sorry, it's over
Oh oh, It is for real.
We might of have had it all
I was so stupid then
You needed time to grow
But now just as things change
As well my feelings do
In time things rearrange
I am so sick of chasing you
But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
You make me regret those times I spent with you
And playing those games as I wait for your call
And now I give up, so goodbye and so long
It's not a change of pace
This time I'll get it right
It's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night
When I needed you most
When I needed a friend
You let me down now
Like I let you down then
So sorry, it's over
Oh oh, It is for real.
Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, I miss Nabil Yuza truck/lorry/tankloads? Yeah, I do!
Shit him for jotting down his name of the piece of paper and there goes a week of studies.
Tsk.
Nevertheless, he misses me too! and, might be meeting up! Gah.
Without those people who went for the course, the class have become a better place for education to take place. Seriously, not much noise, less people means less heat, so classroom is so much colder now and yeah, great! haha.
But oh maaan, classmates please come back! haha.
I have nothing much to blog, seriously.
Kakak Nanny? haha, she's fine (:
Oh, LOVES, I'm okaay. Don't worry about me yeah.
bye. :'(
Shit him for jotting down his name of the piece of paper and there goes a week of studies.
Tsk.
Nevertheless, he misses me too! and, might be meeting up! Gah.
Without those people who went for the course, the class have become a better place for education to take place. Seriously, not much noise, less people means less heat, so classroom is so much colder now and yeah, great! haha.
But oh maaan, classmates please come back! haha.
I have nothing much to blog, seriously.
Kakak Nanny? haha, she's fine (:
Oh, LOVES, I'm okaay. Don't worry about me yeah.
bye. :'(
Monday, September 15, 2008
HOLY MOTHER OF KETUPAT!
Time check : 5:02am
Date : 15Th September 2008
Hahaha. The reason why I forced myself to stay awake tonight was to complete my art. But instead of cracking every part of my body, I stayed awake watching videos, blog hopping, MSN-ing & downloading. I've spent majority of the time on the lappy watching videos of different kinds of people having their braces on. Ouch, I must say. But I still do wanna have it on!
Also check if it will affect my playing on the Clarinet. Bad news, it will. GAH.
I'm really tired. But if I were to crash to bed later, I won't be able to wake up to head to school. So, it's either I force myself to wake up later or don't sleep and suffer in school later. HEH. Blame the net for so much information's that have kept me awake all night long. hees (:
Had early sahur with my sister. Speaking of sahur, I've just remembered that I've yet drank water after eating. Die. Never mind. So anyway, I'm tired.
Girl, please live for yourself, not for fame. I'm disappointed in you. over a small matter. Tsk.
Oh never mind. I'll take ALL the blame, I'll cover it up for you.
Asphyxiated.
Gee, I need to berry. Goodbye.
Time check : 5:02am
Date : 15Th September 2008
Hahaha. The reason why I forced myself to stay awake tonight was to complete my art. But instead of cracking every part of my body, I stayed awake watching videos, blog hopping, MSN-ing & downloading. I've spent majority of the time on the lappy watching videos of different kinds of people having their braces on. Ouch, I must say. But I still do wanna have it on!
Also check if it will affect my playing on the Clarinet. Bad news, it will. GAH.
I'm really tired. But if I were to crash to bed later, I won't be able to wake up to head to school. So, it's either I force myself to wake up later or don't sleep and suffer in school later. HEH. Blame the net for so much information's that have kept me awake all night long. hees (:
Had early sahur with my sister. Speaking of sahur, I've just remembered that I've yet drank water after eating. Die. Never mind. So anyway, I'm tired.
Girl, please live for yourself, not for fame. I'm disappointed in you. over a small matter. Tsk.
Oh never mind. I'll take ALL the blame, I'll cover it up for you.
Asphyxiated.
Gee, I need to berry. Goodbye.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Testin
Yeah, that was yesterday. See see? How ugly I am & please ask, where are my eyes.
Thanks Museey for the pictures. Afee, it's okay.
tunggu kau hantar gambar, aku bleh beranak siak. K fake.
Yesterday, a little ticked off with Mother & Sister. What the hell. Just don't understand the pushing and forcing to pray. Slowly, I will. I don't like it when you guys force alright. Please. Never mind.
Nabil sweets won't be around for a week & I'm pissed off with him! Gah, studies is so much important than " experience " lah. C'mon, that animation course is so not important. Omg, end year is in 2 weeks time ( I think! ) and you still got the cheek to get away from it for the whole week? Honestly, I don't know who have brainwashed & corrupted your mind. Tsk, till you've lost your senses.
Enough said. I'm suppose to do my art after I get home for Religious class today but instead of doing art, I've well spent my time by sleeping from 12pm till 6pm. Awesome or what? Haha. But uhm, I guess I'm staying up tonight to finish up, prolly. See how, you think? HAHA. (:
The weekends is ending real soon, & I guess I mean nothing to Arif. Heh, no text message from him for a week. Haiz, Bright side Irah, bright side. whatever.
Enough said, goodbye.
/re-edited.
Hibernate and left home to sent brother to Civil Defence Academy. Shiok sia. haha. Okay, dropped at Vista Point and bought Bubble tea & Tao Kae Noi. And I have to go to toilet many times. Thanks ah. Nbcb.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Before you go, I wanna say; I'm sorry.
I just got back from the library, bazaar & causeway with the awesome friends.
In the morning, dad drove me to school for sectionals. Practice alot on the clarinet and played Bass Clarinet, E flat Clarinet, B flat Clarinet. Then to Vibraphone & to DRUMSET! Awesome feeling, sucky co ordinations =.=
Left school around 1.30pm and headed to play the swing with Caroline & Si Yuan. There, we talked alot about band and our own things. Fun! The wind was great, Caroline and I layed down and I did fell asleep till received a call from Afee. Like finally! Was waiting for her call hours ago!
Bused to Causeway and met her at Library. There, I met her friends (: I loveeee them. haha.
Fun time with all of 'em. Photos will be publish after Afee send it to me and after I've edited it.
Exhausted. Goobye.
It's weekends, where's Arif?
I just got back from the library, bazaar & causeway with the awesome friends.
In the morning, dad drove me to school for sectionals. Practice alot on the clarinet and played Bass Clarinet, E flat Clarinet, B flat Clarinet. Then to Vibraphone & to DRUMSET! Awesome feeling, sucky co ordinations =.=
Left school around 1.30pm and headed to play the swing with Caroline & Si Yuan. There, we talked alot about band and our own things. Fun! The wind was great, Caroline and I layed down and I did fell asleep till received a call from Afee. Like finally! Was waiting for her call hours ago!
Bused to Causeway and met her at Library. There, I met her friends (: I loveeee them. haha.
Fun time with all of 'em. Photos will be publish after Afee send it to me and after I've edited it.
Exhausted. Goobye.
It's weekends, where's Arif?
Friday, September 12, 2008
Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus.
She's definitely one great celebrity that majority of us look up to. Somehow, I don't hate her anymore ( I know this is crap but hey, really ). Her songs may not be my kinda of songs but to think of it, she's around my age and bam, she got 2 albums ( I suppose ). I love her songs, the lyrics. I miss you & I learned from you.
We always don't agree on
What is the best way
To get to the place that we're going from here
But I can really trust you,
and give you the distance,
to make your decisions without any fear
The bold ones, that is what I'm hoping for.
Ah, Friday. I hate Fridays. I slept alot in class.
ya da ya da ya da. Was a little sick but still did turn up for school. Went home with Afee.
I guess today was a little bit sucky. What a luck to bump to him otw to school after a looooong time not bumping into him in the morning. And again, left school, he was behind behind me. I really don't know what's up with me. I just find it.. oh never mind.
Got home & and I went to open my fridge. Forgotten about fasting. heh.
Again, a short entry. I'm tired. I need more sleep to be recharge.
Having sectionals tomorrow even though I'm tired. Art, die die die die die tmr must finish up.
She's definitely one great celebrity that majority of us look up to. Somehow, I don't hate her anymore ( I know this is crap but hey, really ). Her songs may not be my kinda of songs but to think of it, she's around my age and bam, she got 2 albums ( I suppose ). I love her songs, the lyrics. I miss you & I learned from you.
We always don't agree on
What is the best way
To get to the place that we're going from here
But I can really trust you,
and give you the distance,
to make your decisions without any fear
The bold ones, that is what I'm hoping for.
Ah, Friday. I hate Fridays. I slept alot in class.
ya da ya da ya da. Was a little sick but still did turn up for school. Went home with Afee.
I guess today was a little bit sucky. What a luck to bump to him otw to school after a looooong time not bumping into him in the morning. And again, left school, he was behind behind me. I really don't know what's up with me. I just find it.. oh never mind.
Got home & and I went to open my fridge. Forgotten about fasting. heh.
Again, a short entry. I'm tired. I need more sleep to be recharge.
Having sectionals tomorrow even though I'm tired. Art, die die die die die tmr must finish up.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
I think I'm falling sick.
I've been going to bed after midnight everyday since the 1 week holidays started. I can hardly be fresh everyday in school. Plus, waking up at 5am every morning now to sahur & then to school.
School. Have been tiring especially this month. Fasting. I've been sleeping in class instead of working my heads off. I'm awfully tired. Ah, I need alot of sleep. I'm serious. alot alot alot.
Almost a week not in contact with him.
I'm tired. goodbye.
I've been going to bed after midnight everyday since the 1 week holidays started. I can hardly be fresh everyday in school. Plus, waking up at 5am every morning now to sahur & then to school.
School. Have been tiring especially this month. Fasting. I've been sleeping in class instead of working my heads off. I'm awfully tired. Ah, I need alot of sleep. I'm serious. alot alot alot.
Almost a week not in contact with him.
I'm tired. goodbye.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I'm finally home.
School was fine. Except that my tummy ache like so badly that I wanna cry. And I got no shoulders to cry on. Bleargh. Kental.
Okay let's start then entry proper. Mother didn't cook for sahur so, my sister woke up at 4am
and ordered macdonalds thinking the delivery will take the most 1 hour. But to our surprise, we received calls at 4.25am saying that our food is here. 25 minutes. Awesome.
Not so awesome, left the food on the dining table and continued sleeping. Well actually, it's my sister who got up and collected the food while me and my lazy ass continued sleeping till 5.15am.
Had sahur & then prepared for school.
Batik was alright. The teacher is turning nastier. Gah! chilax Irah.
Left school with Afee around 4 plus I guess. I went home without my watch & I'm pretty pissed off I must say.
Not forgetting that someone stole my calculator, again. What the fuck lah ass. Give me back can or not? I've paste my name ON THE CALCULATOR & THE COVER. Still can't see that it doesn't belong to you? Omg. Whoever, return. Sucha crap that can't afford a calculator and go stealing people's? what an idiot. I didn't misplace it and I'm 110% sure I didn't. so, give me back lah stealer. I'm sorry but I'm angry.
go and die people.
NABIL, I WANT MY WATCH BACK. & AKU MARAH DGN KAU. dah diam.
School was fine. Except that my tummy ache like so badly that I wanna cry. And I got no shoulders to cry on. Bleargh. Kental.
Okay let's start then entry proper. Mother didn't cook for sahur so, my sister woke up at 4am
and ordered macdonalds thinking the delivery will take the most 1 hour. But to our surprise, we received calls at 4.25am saying that our food is here. 25 minutes. Awesome.
Not so awesome, left the food on the dining table and continued sleeping. Well actually, it's my sister who got up and collected the food while me and my lazy ass continued sleeping till 5.15am.
Had sahur & then prepared for school.
Batik was alright. The teacher is turning nastier. Gah! chilax Irah.
Left school with Afee around 4 plus I guess. I went home without my watch & I'm pretty pissed off I must say.
Not forgetting that someone stole my calculator, again. What the fuck lah ass. Give me back can or not? I've paste my name ON THE CALCULATOR & THE COVER. Still can't see that it doesn't belong to you? Omg. Whoever, return. Sucha crap that can't afford a calculator and go stealing people's? what an idiot. I didn't misplace it and I'm 110% sure I didn't. so, give me back lah stealer. I'm sorry but I'm angry.
go and die people.
NABIL, I WANT MY WATCH BACK. & AKU MARAH DGN KAU. dah diam.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
HAHA. Before I begin, let's wish my only brother a
HAPPY 21ST Birthday. Happy NS-ing okay? <3>
Alright.
School? Yeah, school was fine today except that I got very sleepy during the first two periods and I went to sleep for a few minutes before heading to Mother Tongue lesson. And yes, MT lesson, another sleepy one. My vision became so blur when I started to do my letter writing. Hariz sat next to me. Funny (: And ohh, didn't know Hariz got sucha nice body and awesome abs. Like WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
ok, lols.
So, I'm struggling now with all the deadlines I have to meet. Actually, I've cross the deadline. heh. Sorry teachers. But I'm thankful that even after I handed in nice development of Ideas with no layouts & final work, Mr Isham still return my work back & told me to complete. And Irah, after knowing how kind Mr Isham is, you're still one stubborn brat who do want to do. Am I not interested or it is just that I don't have the sense of urgency? Ah, kental.
Art lesson was a killer today. Sat with Nabil for the whole four periods and I guess, today is my paisey day. Seriously, I've said so many things which is the other way round & I've bang into table while walking, confidently. Even when I sound like I'm picking a fight, I said the words all wrongly. Okay, may not sound funny but Nabil & I kicked ass just now (:
After my favourite Physics lesson, walked down to take the early dismissal form and ya da ya da ya da. Met Father at the drop off point & drove to ICA building. I hate it that I have to take Instant Picture at that point of time. Dammit lah, I will forever look ugly in my IC. Never mind, none of you will ever get to see! huahuahua. okay wth.
Went to Geylang and bought food & drinks for break fast. Slept the journey to ICA & back home. Was tired. Dad went to Mosque to collect bubur Majid, shiok man. Okay, enough.
Ah, I'm struggling with my homework now and I guess, I'm serving detention tomorrow, WHICH! I don't want to. I have not stepped into RTC for detention in my whole Sec Three life and I don't wanna stepped in for detention. hah. Okay, let's chiong. Malay is hard & how that Arif can get A1? tsk.
Momma, you allowed me to go Perth Trip, thank you.
Momma, please please please let me do braces, thank you. (:
Si Yuan asked me to do this quiz. (:
#1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
England
#2. What's your favourite thing to do?
snack
#3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
No. Duh? don't be stupid to ask such question can or not? Lol.
#4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
Sheckler Sneakers.
#5. Things/People you can't live without?
Mother. Laptop. Food. Music. Sleep.
#6. What are you afraid to lose? Everything.
#7. If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do?
Buy Shecklers, meet Ryan & marry him. HAHA! Nah, prolly get all those shiets I don't have & so badly wanna have.
#8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Will see which road I choose later on.
#9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
Si Yuan? Crazy Crazy and crazy (:
#10. What makes you happy?
Coke & chocolates. Serious
#11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Self Proclaims.
#12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
Change my luck?
#13. Would you go for happiness or money?
It depends.
#14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?
Family & friends.
#15. If you have a stead, would you die for them?
Not worth dying. Cause it's only "stead"
#16. Who's the last person who hugged you?
I can't recall. wait, someone awesome(:
#17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
To confess to Arif. Can I mention one more? Over and done with with EOY!
#18. Who are you close to?
My friends? Family?
#19. Are you courageous enough to the person that you like?
You know, I know.
Stop eating sweets. Now, I have ugly teeth.
7 Things that scare you :
CLOWNS. Santa Claus. Cats. Dogs. Flies. Pen Knife. Ghost.
7 Things I like the most :
you made me love you, haha.
7 Important things in my room :
Mirror. Air Con. Fan. Laptop. My pillows. door?. lights?
7 Random facts about me :
I love to eat junk food. Sleep. Green Purple orange. I'm fat. Ugly. I stink & so do you.
7 Things I plan to do before I die :
Seek forgiveness. Pray. To get assurance. Eat. Spent every cent that I have. Meet Silas. Have the awesomest time with family & friends.
7 Things I can't do :
Sing. dance. socialise much. look pretty. meet ryan, frank lampard, jared leto & kyle.
7 Things you're attracted to the opposite sex :
HAIR. Smile. Complexion. Heart. Smell! ( turns me on ). eyes. smart looks.
7 Things I always say : Omg. Nbcb. haha. eh? JI DAN. FUNNY ISIT? shut up can or not.
7 People to do this questionaire : Alyssha. Nadiah. Maris tetek Maut. whoever.
Labels: don't ask me about that face lah okay? haha.
Monday, September 08, 2008
I don't wanna bother about it, but it's bothering me.
How?
How.
The have been playing through my mind all the time. Even if I'm confessing to him, I still will cry a river after that. I don't know how he would react. Accept & let it go or won't accept it & make things happen.
One of his friends saw me walking at level three after band. He was standing outside the Library and he shouted my name at first, well of course I turned & he kept quiet. I was rushing to be back home on time to breakfast so, I ignored. " Amirah, Arif maner? ", he asked. I didn't respond to that. He kept on repeating the same sentence. Bumped into Faiz & chatted awhile (:
I heard him saying " jangan kacau dier lah ", and I felt so awwww for just awhile. I don't know what was that for but haha, never mind people.
I've been wanting to text him about something, but I don't know if I should. Ah, dilemma. whatever. So Arif, if ever you're reading this even if it's months later, text me & ask me about this. Please & thank you. Haiz.
Enough of this.
So kental. I mean, myself. haha (:
I'm tired. goodbye.
& Mr Tan who relief-ed my class just now, yes I can right pretty well.
Only if I'm interested & have the mood too. Serious, this is rare. haha!
I'm done.
goodbye
Labels: oh thats my ryan. MINE
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
That used to happened.
The night cries. Crying in the dark. Tears rolling down my cheek.
And every time I'm questioned why, I couldn't talk.
My words are slurred & chopped.
I guess, all that won't be happening anymore.
Ah, I don't know why! And yes friends, I will think twice about all of it.
I only watched few minutes of England's match this morning.
My eyes couldn't get any smaller! Decided to sleep at the hall with my siblings.
Was text messaging Dani about how angry & irritating the cable was.
Which soccer match got advertisements? & the sound system sucks.
Sleepy cum lost of mood to watch. Blah, England won still.
Woke up to sahur with my brother. After eating, drop dead back to sleep.
Later, I heard father screaming at brother to wake up at 7am & I know, I have to wake up to!
There's religious Class but surprisingly, father didn't wake me up. Chance, I kept on sleeping.
Usually, dad will wake me up. But he didn't this morning. heh, I didn't attend class today (:
Today, I woke up at 5pm. Hardcore eh? HAHA. & the weird thing is, I really really really did sleep till 5pm. I wasn't awaken by anything from that night, except for father asking me to go the room around 1pm I guess. As soon as I went to sleep in the room, I didn't wake up nor tersadar. Only opened my eyes & conscious when my sister screamed at me. Whoa, 5pm.
Shocked too, eventhough I've wake up waaaaaaay later than that ever before in my life.
heh.
Got up & got ready to head to Grandmother's place to breakfast as a big big family.
Not really the whole lot of us, just the usuals. Raudha's family, mine & Dani's came.
Had lots of food & they bought bubble tea. Left the place around 8.45pm and followed father to send brother to Civil Defence Academy. Lol. Before that, send the gf to Cwp.
Bye bye brother! (:
Baby Apin sang Happy Birthday earlier on.
" Happy doh deh to you, Happy doh deh to you, Happy doh deh to adek "
" Doh " pronounced as 'door'. Cute isn't he? (:
Yesterday night I texted Arif; ' Arif, If I were to die, will you cry? '
Morning, he replied that he will & asked why. Haha, I'm dying, don't you know?.
Never mind about that.
It's not that I missed him or something. It's just that I'm curious & been wanting to know
if he will cry or not. Heh.
Homework, not done. I'm dead. For the first time, I feel like crying because I've forgotten all my basics in E Maths. Irah, go bang wall. Seriously.
I'm dead tomorrow.
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
That used to happened.
The night cries. Crying in the dark. Tears rolling down my cheek.
And every time I'm questioned why, I couldn't talk.
My words are slurred & chopped.
I guess, all that won't be happening anymore.
Ah, I don't know why! And yes friends, I will think twice about all of it.
I only watched few minutes of England's match this morning.
My eyes couldn't get any smaller! Decided to sleep at the hall with my siblings.
Was text messaging Dani about how angry & irritating the cable was.
Which soccer match got advertisements? & the sound system sucks.
Sleepy cum lost of mood to watch. Blah, England won still.
Woke up to sahur with my brother. After eating, drop dead back to sleep.
Later, I heard father screaming at brother to wake up at 7am & I know, I have to wake up to!
There's religious Class but surprisingly, father didn't wake me up. Chance, I kept on sleeping.
Usually, dad will wake me up. But he didn't this morning. heh, I didn't attend class today (:
Today, I woke up at 5pm. Hardcore eh? HAHA. & the weird thing is, I really really really did sleep till 5pm. I wasn't awaken by anything from that night, except for father asking me to go the room around 1pm I guess. As soon as I went to sleep in the room, I didn't wake up nor tersadar. Only opened my eyes & conscious when my sister screamed at me. Whoa, 5pm.
Shocked too, eventhough I've wake up waaaaaaay later than that ever before in my life.
heh.
Got up & got ready to head to Grandmother's place to breakfast as a big big family.
Not really the whole lot of us, just the usuals. Raudha's family, mine & Dani's came.
Had lots of food & they bought bubble tea. Left the place around 8.45pm and followed father to send brother to Civil Defence Academy. Lol. Before that, send the gf to Cwp.
Bye bye brother! (:
Baby Apin sang Happy Birthday earlier on.
" Happy doh deh to you, Happy doh deh to you, Happy doh deh to adek "
" Doh " pronounced as 'door'. Cute isn't he? (:
Yesterday night I texted Arif; ' Arif, If I were to die, will you cry? '
Morning, he replied that he will & asked why. Haha, I'm dying, don't you know?.
Never mind about that.
It's not that I missed him or something. It's just that I'm curious & been wanting to know
if he will cry or not. Heh.
Homework, not done. I'm dead. For the first time, I feel like crying because I've forgotten all my basics in E Maths. Irah, go bang wall. Seriously.
I'm dead tomorrow.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
See see? That picture. Credits to? Okay, to both Nadiah & Nabil. The 'N's! Thanks Nabil for taking this picture without my permission & editing it like this. Making the food the centre of attraction rather than myself. Cruel ass. Nevertheless, awesome editing eh picnik? HAHA (:
Today, Saturday band practice. I was seriously tired & could hardly get off of bed even after going to bed at 8pm. But knowing I can't be late for fall-in, I did drag myself out & got ready. Left home around 7.45am. Knowing that's the time to fall-in, well, I heard ...45am must fall-in so definitely, I'm late.
But I guess the time & the clock cheated my feelings! I entered the school compound walking like I was walking for a marathon around 8.05am & Mr Sim drove in and looked at me. At that moment, I knew I'm dead. So never mind, rushed up to band room. While heading to the music room, I wonder why the hell is the room so dark? Why isn't there anybody walking in and out of the toilet washing mouthpiece or anyone walking up and down the stairs from the staffroom? One more, why isn't there anyone blowing their instruments & why isn't there a single pair of shoes? I freaked out for awhile.
Got nearer and saw my section mate Valerie, who was sitting at the round table. I asked her why isn't there anybody when it's already 8.10am?! & she replied me; ' today band start at 9am. Fall-in at 8.45am '. Yes, my jaw dropped and I was pissed off with myself! What came to my mind was knowing that fall-in is at 8.45am, I could wake up from sleep around 7.10am, exactly the time I reached the band room! Oh my god!
There goes Valerie telling me her side of coming into school earlier than me. Haha, very funny. Later on, Caroline & Joyce came & Caroline was flabbergasted to see me reached before she do cause I'm always known for a late comer. Ah, coming very early was fun lah. chill chill. Of course, we spent our time laughing our ass off about alot of things. Awesome.
Had sectionals for the first hour. Spent my time house keeping my section's cupboard & arranging the extra and old scores accordingly. Headache headache. But yeah, the room is clean now. Happy Happy. Sectional for awhile and was called to combined. Combined was fun. We did a couple of songs & yes, the solo was awesome. But I have to agree that I played too soft. First sight reading, mind you.
Oh yeah, have to fork out $450 for Perth trip. Awesome or what. Some even had to pay $800 still, after those deductions. And lucky Caroline, she is only paying $100! Not fair.
Anyways, Congratulations to Harith for becoming our future Band Major & Luthfi, our current Band Major will be promoted to Drum Major, making Aaron our current Drum Major the Senior Drum Major. All guys, super guys. Yeah right. All the best for NCO.
After band, went off to Causeway Point & they had their lunch. Walked around with them & some went home leaving Caroline, Shirly & myself. Had fun learning chinese & yes, I'm pretty good at it. Especially saying smelly egg in chinese. haha (: Headed home around 4pm. Tired.
Nadiah, why off? I thought you're gonna help me with the downloading? Haiz. And yes people, I'm gonna be more tired from tomorrow onwards. I've been sleeping late night & tonight, I don't think I will be sleeping as I'm watching England's match & then sahur. Then, religious class. Bleargh lah!
Okay, covered The boy Called 'IT' & now reading on the second volume, The Lost Boy. Evil mother, that's what I've been saying.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
I miss Muhammad Razif.
Strumming on your guitar every night,
looking through your photographs.
See those awesome tags you got for Esplanade performances,
I feel very proud & honoured to have someone like you in my life.
Here I am wearing your black cap,
sitting on your favourite chair.
My surroundings reminds me of you.
Friday till Sunday is the only day I get to see you,
leaving the rest of the days very very, very empty.
Nothing beats,
HAVING A BROTHER LIKE YOU XD
So you guys thought I was talking about who?
I'm dead bored.
Was suppose to meet my two best friends right?
Guess what? One was still sleeping at 10.25am.
The other one wasn't at the meeting place at 10.30am.
I got piss off but luckily, the second one decided to meet
outside school cause it's pretty early to enter school.
So yeah, why not.
Bought some light snacks and headed to meet Nabil (:
Stay awhile outside school with the 3N1s then entered school.
Class was delayed so, didn't end at 12pm. Somewhere 15 minutes later.
Right after I handed in my work, received a call from Nadiah &
dashed out of school to meet her. No rush actually, but she was in a rush,
why? She said Arif is infront. Alright, but, so?. lols (:
It turned out to be a bad day for Arif :(
I'm so sorry sweeets.
Won't elaborate already.
This makes it harder for me to confess.
Omgomg, can I don't confess?.
My Story.
A BOY CALLED " IT "
THE LOST BOY
A MAN NAMED DAVE
I bought that true life story book for 24 bucks.
Worth it I must say. I was glad that I didn't choose those
shopaholic kind of book. Thanks to Nadiah eh! (:
But the most irritating thing is that,
I happily went home around 6pm & told my sister about the book.
Cause, it's Alien Exist for me to go out and buy a book.
And you know what she replied after seeing the Book Cover?
" AH, I GOT THIS BOOK LAH. WHY BUY? "
okay, 24 bucks voucher gone down the drain.
In fact, all of the voucher gone.. wait, not all. ahah.
It was well spent (:
Horrible. I'm fatigued of munching.
Okay, if you love me, buy me a chocolate bar & a bottle of coke.
Thank you.
Strumming on your guitar every night,
looking through your photographs.
See those awesome tags you got for Esplanade performances,
I feel very proud & honoured to have someone like you in my life.
Here I am wearing your black cap,
sitting on your favourite chair.
My surroundings reminds me of you.
Friday till Sunday is the only day I get to see you,
leaving the rest of the days very very, very empty.
Nothing beats,
HAVING A BROTHER LIKE YOU XD
So you guys thought I was talking about who?
I'm dead bored.
Was suppose to meet my two best friends right?
Guess what? One was still sleeping at 10.25am.
The other one wasn't at the meeting place at 10.30am.
I got piss off but luckily, the second one decided to meet
outside school cause it's pretty early to enter school.
So yeah, why not.
Bought some light snacks and headed to meet Nabil (:
Stay awhile outside school with the 3N1s then entered school.
Class was delayed so, didn't end at 12pm. Somewhere 15 minutes later.
Right after I handed in my work, received a call from Nadiah &
dashed out of school to meet her. No rush actually, but she was in a rush,
why? She said Arif is infront. Alright, but, so?. lols (:
It turned out to be a bad day for Arif :(
I'm so sorry sweeets.
Won't elaborate already.
This makes it harder for me to confess.
Omgomg, can I don't confess?.
My Story.
A BOY CALLED " IT "
THE LOST BOY
A MAN NAMED DAVE
I bought that true life story book for 24 bucks.
Worth it I must say. I was glad that I didn't choose those
shopaholic kind of book. Thanks to Nadiah eh! (:
But the most irritating thing is that,
I happily went home around 6pm & told my sister about the book.
Cause, it's Alien Exist for me to go out and buy a book.
And you know what she replied after seeing the Book Cover?
" AH, I GOT THIS BOOK LAH. WHY BUY? "
okay, 24 bucks voucher gone down the drain.
In fact, all of the voucher gone.. wait, not all. ahah.
It was well spent (:
Horrible. I'm fatigued of munching.
Okay, if you love me, buy me a chocolate bar & a bottle of coke.
Thank you.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
2Nd entry for today and I'm turning in.
Like finally, there's remedial tomorrow.
Geography, wake up call. I haaaaaaaaaaave to
be more attentive and proactive because I have to admit,
I have totally no idea on what I've wrote in every single question
in Geography Common Test Booklet. Seriously. & whaaat?, I passed
like awesome-ly? The feeling ain't fun.
Wake up call for you Irah.
Pass with flying colours! please!
So yes, I'm meeting my 2 keparats ( Nabil & Afee ) in the morning
and then meeting Nadiah dearie after class. So, meeting up with
my three awesomest people (: Awesome!
Ah, I just can't believe that there's actually a girl whom I thought
to be the those I'll.keep.my.words.to.myself or kind of stuff to actually
say that I've been talking about Arif too much to my good friend?.
Firstly, she's so much closer to me than you are.
So, it's pointless & extremely wrong for you to say that.
Seriously, I'm your friend, yes. I can say I'm not your " hi bye " friend
you see around in school. I'm more than that but hey, you just
don't judge me that way okay.
Secondly, actually, there's no more secondly. haha!
Nevermind.
I told Afee about MY secret of jealousy.
Afee to Nabil too. So two of them knows so if ever this
leaks out, I definitely know who to kill first.
Jealousy, I just can't believe it that I actually did
shed tears seeing them together.
Big girls don't cry. I won't.
I'm tired.
I hope I can wake up early tomorrow (:
Like finally, there's remedial tomorrow.
Geography, wake up call. I haaaaaaaaaaave to
be more attentive and proactive because I have to admit,
I have totally no idea on what I've wrote in every single question
in Geography Common Test Booklet. Seriously. & whaaat?, I passed
like awesome-ly? The feeling ain't fun.
Wake up call for you Irah.
Pass with flying colours! please!
So yes, I'm meeting my 2 keparats ( Nabil & Afee ) in the morning
and then meeting Nadiah dearie after class. So, meeting up with
my three awesomest people (: Awesome!
Ah, I just can't believe that there's actually a girl whom I thought
to be the those I'll.keep.my.words.to.myself or kind of stuff to actually
say that I've been talking about Arif too much to my good friend?.
Firstly, she's so much closer to me than you are.
So, it's pointless & extremely wrong for you to say that.
Seriously, I'm your friend, yes. I can say I'm not your " hi bye " friend
you see around in school. I'm more than that but hey, you just
don't judge me that way okay.
Secondly, actually, there's no more secondly. haha!
Nevermind.
I told Afee about MY secret of jealousy.
Afee to Nabil too. So two of them knows so if ever this
leaks out, I definitely know who to kill first.
Jealousy, I just can't believe it that I actually did
shed tears seeing them together.
Big girls don't cry. I won't.
I'm tired.
I hope I can wake up early tomorrow (:
again, understand my frustration
Isn't this awesome or great?
I just don't seem to understand why everything I do doesn't seem right
to mom's eye. My mother have always been the issue & I don't know why.
Yes, I admit that I've woke up late almost everyday ever since the holidays
started but that doesn't mean I did not do at least one chore. I did.
I admit that I've been spending waaaay to much time on the laptop & therefore,
leaving the whole how is sucha mess. I admit, I'm at fault.
Clearly, I need some help.
Everything I do seems wrong.
And when I've done something right, you won't say anything.
You would just make it worse by saying something like;
' out of 5, you've only cleaned the house once '
Give me a big OUCH, readers.
Why why why everything has to be me?
Go to the shop and get bread, me.
Go call your dad and ask him what time is he coming home, me.
Go call your sister and ask this and that, me.
Go take out the laundries in the washing machine, me.
WHY HAVE YOU NOT DONE ANYTHING I ASK YOU TO DO?!.
Go and switch off the lights, there's no need to have the lights switched on
when you're watching TV, me ( But who is watching? YOU, not me )
Definitely taking advantage of the youngest in the family.
And when I tried having a freedom of speech, I was shut by saying
' DON'T ANSWER BACK WHEN AN ADULT IS TALKING TO YOU '.
Clearly there was no freedom of speech policy no more.
This is not fun.
How would you want me to do all those things when you asked me
in the harsh way? Even you said that's the normal tone you're using,
I still do find it harsh. I'm a soft & gentle person, if you've not realised.
I mean, I'm sensitive & you know it. So, react to those things!
I just don't get it why I'm always the person to face all this.
And when my teacher called saying that I complained to her that I'm stress,
you said I'm over reacting, ' small girl, stress already '.
Like oh my god, do I need to be 24 to be stress?
Even a 5 years old can die of depression & stress, mama.
Like oh my god, I'm speechless.
Now you people tell me, is something wrong with me?
Today, it's the 21st century, right?
So please, for the love of god do not compare what I'm doing now
with what my sister have done waaaay back when she's at my age now.
Things changed as times change.
Like I've said waaaaaaaaaay many times already & I'm saying it again,
UNDERSTAND MY FRUSTRATION
goodbye.
I just don't seem to understand why everything I do doesn't seem right
to mom's eye. My mother have always been the issue & I don't know why.
Yes, I admit that I've woke up late almost everyday ever since the holidays
started but that doesn't mean I did not do at least one chore. I did.
I admit that I've been spending waaaay to much time on the laptop & therefore,
leaving the whole how is sucha mess. I admit, I'm at fault.
Clearly, I need some help.
Everything I do seems wrong.
And when I've done something right, you won't say anything.
You would just make it worse by saying something like;
' out of 5, you've only cleaned the house once '
Give me a big OUCH, readers.
Why why why everything has to be me?
Go to the shop and get bread, me.
Go call your dad and ask him what time is he coming home, me.
Go call your sister and ask this and that, me.
Go take out the laundries in the washing machine, me.
WHY HAVE YOU NOT DONE ANYTHING I ASK YOU TO DO?!.
Go and switch off the lights, there's no need to have the lights switched on
when you're watching TV, me ( But who is watching? YOU, not me )
Definitely taking advantage of the youngest in the family.
And when I tried having a freedom of speech, I was shut by saying
' DON'T ANSWER BACK WHEN AN ADULT IS TALKING TO YOU '.
Clearly there was no freedom of speech policy no more.
This is not fun.
How would you want me to do all those things when you asked me
in the harsh way? Even you said that's the normal tone you're using,
I still do find it harsh. I'm a soft & gentle person, if you've not realised.
I mean, I'm sensitive & you know it. So, react to those things!
I just don't get it why I'm always the person to face all this.
And when my teacher called saying that I complained to her that I'm stress,
you said I'm over reacting, ' small girl, stress already '.
Like oh my god, do I need to be 24 to be stress?
Even a 5 years old can die of depression & stress, mama.
Like oh my god, I'm speechless.
Now you people tell me, is something wrong with me?
Today, it's the 21st century, right?
So please, for the love of god do not compare what I'm doing now
with what my sister have done waaaay back when she's at my age now.
Things changed as times change.
Like I've said waaaaaaaaaay many times already & I'm saying it again,
UNDERSTAND MY FRUSTRATION
goodbye.
Labels: no seriously, why am i even living?
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Little by little.
Most of my friends realised the change.
Little by little.
I dare to make it obvious.
Little by little.
I've changed to be a stronger individual.
Little by little.
The feelings gets, little.
Little by little.
Little by little.
How would you react upon knowing this?
A bloody dead bored day.
Suppose to have Remedial but cancelled.
Woke up late afternoon, I'm boreeeeeed.
& Yes Ario, it's Monthsary, not Anniversary.
Most of my friends realised the change.
Little by little.
I dare to make it obvious.
Little by little.
I've changed to be a stronger individual.
Little by little.
The feelings gets, little.
Little by little.
Little by little.
How would you react upon knowing this?
A bloody dead bored day.
Suppose to have Remedial but cancelled.
Woke up late afternoon, I'm boreeeeeed.
& Yes Ario, it's Monthsary, not Anniversary.
seriously, i find my feelings getting little.
Monday, September 01, 2008
Okay, this gonna sound like a class blog but,
ATTENTION 3N2ER'S: Please go " awwww" after reading this.
I guess Miss Lee is sick so, tomorrow's Mathematics Remedial is cancelled
& don't know if it's gonna be postponed or just cancelled.
I seriously looked forward for tomorrow's lesson.
I get to meet my two best friends & my other classmates.
I get to disturb Miss Lee again & again.
Ah, you got my hopes & excitement high & you crash it down.
So, won't have my morning meet-ups with Afee & Nabil :(
So anyways, my Birthday is finally over and I'm thankful for that.
The reason why is because turning a year older is a special day where
people especially your family members will treat you like a princess/prince.
A princess, for my case. But not for me. Yesterday was just a normal day
WHICH I do not want it to be a day to remember. Never.
Except for those awesome wishes which kept on flowing in!
Some even wished me more than twice! awesomest!
Well, I guess I've spent my birthday doing the most normal thing
all humans do. Wake up, brush teeth, watched tv, eat, use the lappy,
then shower, clear those ear wax ( errr? ), phone calls, eat, text message.
and the list goes...
Oh yeah, before I forget;
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY RABIATUL ADAWIYAH BINTE IDRIS (:
dAAAANGS, I can't let her go create her IC before I do!
Mommy, went are we going? haha.
" Seriously, I find my feelings getting little "
I don't know what's up with me now but really, I find it decreasing.
Nope, I don't have anyone else in mind eversince I know you.
But it's just that recently, I've been thinking more about myself than "us".
Sure I still do want Reefyrah to establish, dearie. But, I just don't know.
I'm sure you will understand what I'm trying to say here. Nothing much
to imply here actually. Well, I am trying to imply something.
Okay, what crap am I saying siaks? Okay..
Remembered that time when you said to one of OUR friend;
" Have I been neglecting her?. Have I been ignoring here? Have I not been
keeping in touch & not talk to her? No right? then ? "
Those words showed me two sides.
ONE: It shows me that you just did all that just to prove to people & myself
that you're not an evil person who keeps a girl waiting. case terpakse.
TWO: You really got hooked with me.
Honestly, I don't think those two points are true.
Okay, I AM taking a huge risks on this because we are going on extremely
well now and I might have just jeopardized all of it. But hey, somethings just
have got to be said out no matter how critical or non critical the situation is.
Yes, you didn't give any assurance to me but with what you've been doing,
it shows that I'm something to you. And I'm over the moon, as always.
But, all these are just like Ferris Wheel. You will be at the highest peak &
soon, you'll be at the lowest point & you'll go up & down again.
Okay, simpler words, certain times I will be treated great with your great
gestures & soothing words and before you know it, the torns are back.
I feel that way.
I trust you. I have trust in you. I have always trusted you. I'm trusting you.
So, please be true this time around.
Not much to update already.
Will see how.
ATTENTION 3N2ER'S: Please go " awwww" after reading this.
I guess Miss Lee is sick so, tomorrow's Mathematics Remedial is cancelled
& don't know if it's gonna be postponed or just cancelled.
I seriously looked forward for tomorrow's lesson.
I get to meet my two best friends & my other classmates.
I get to disturb Miss Lee again & again.
Ah, you got my hopes & excitement high & you crash it down.
So, won't have my morning meet-ups with Afee & Nabil :(
So anyways, my Birthday is finally over and I'm thankful for that.
The reason why is because turning a year older is a special day where
people especially your family members will treat you like a princess/prince.
A princess, for my case. But not for me. Yesterday was just a normal day
WHICH I do not want it to be a day to remember. Never.
Except for those awesome wishes which kept on flowing in!
Some even wished me more than twice! awesomest!
Well, I guess I've spent my birthday doing the most normal thing
all humans do. Wake up, brush teeth, watched tv, eat, use the lappy,
then shower, clear those ear wax ( errr? ), phone calls, eat, text message.
and the list goes...
Oh yeah, before I forget;
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY RABIATUL ADAWIYAH BINTE IDRIS (:
dAAAANGS, I can't let her go create her IC before I do!
Mommy, went are we going? haha.
" Seriously, I find my feelings getting little "
I don't know what's up with me now but really, I find it decreasing.
Nope, I don't have anyone else in mind eversince I know you.
But it's just that recently, I've been thinking more about myself than "us".
Sure I still do want Reefyrah to establish, dearie. But, I just don't know.
I'm sure you will understand what I'm trying to say here. Nothing much
to imply here actually. Well, I am trying to imply something.
Okay, what crap am I saying siaks? Okay..
Remembered that time when you said to one of OUR friend;
" Have I been neglecting her?. Have I been ignoring here? Have I not been
keeping in touch & not talk to her? No right? then ? "
Those words showed me two sides.
ONE: It shows me that you just did all that just to prove to people & myself
that you're not an evil person who keeps a girl waiting. case terpakse.
TWO: You really got hooked with me.
Honestly, I don't think those two points are true.
Okay, I AM taking a huge risks on this because we are going on extremely
well now and I might have just jeopardized all of it. But hey, somethings just
have got to be said out no matter how critical or non critical the situation is.
Yes, you didn't give any assurance to me but with what you've been doing,
it shows that I'm something to you. And I'm over the moon, as always.
But, all these are just like Ferris Wheel. You will be at the highest peak &
soon, you'll be at the lowest point & you'll go up & down again.
Okay, simpler words, certain times I will be treated great with your great
gestures & soothing words and before you know it, the torns are back.
I feel that way.
I trust you. I have trust in you. I have always trusted you. I'm trusting you.
So, please be true this time around.
Not much to update already.
Will see how.